someone saw me!!!!!!!!!

arrgghh!!!!!! i was planning to buy otak2 just now...cuz im sooo hungry!!!!!

so i walked myself to the stall in front of IPBM...

alone...

dunno y but i got ths awkward feelings n my instinct told me

i'd better don't go..

but i ignored it..

so,

i walked along the pedestrian,

saw many cars trapped in a traffic congestion..

pheww..again i felt uncomfortable bcoz...

can feel tat every eyes is looking at me..

cuz i was ALONE!!

caught a sight of two men in a lorry 

waving at me..

with tat 

silly stupid sound..

made my adrenalin runs fast..

i walked faster..

keep telling myself...

'thgs gonna be jusssttt...okaaayy...'

'ur goin to buy otak2, eat em' n u'll b happy...'

p/s otak2 is one of my pebret food...

i'll eat my fvrt food whnevr i feel stress or sad or bored.

aim: 

to pamper myself..

n

to make myself happy...

yess...i'm alone in the hostel right now,

waiting for my aunt to fetch me at 9 pm..

got nthg to do...

n feel so damn bored....

my baby didn't reply my msgs..

most probbly he was sleepng..

got no one to talk to.......

I REALLY NEED TO EAT STH!!!!!!

...so tat's y i decided to go to the stall alone...T.T

back to the story....

with full of hope 

im hoping so much the stall is open..

n....yes....

it is closed!!

i was soooooo!!!

embarrassed !!!

bcuz I 've walked all the way long just to get there n was being seen  with

all the stupid guys

inside their cars..

Being teased..

n etc...

just to know the stall was closed..

i was sooo sad!!

it annoyed me so much...

i can't simply turn back and walk home...

ppl are looking at me !! 

so..

I acted..

stupidly, i took my phone pretending I was called by someone..

(sure u cn imgne tat situation..)

slowly..i turned around...with a serious face..just like someone was telling me

to go back immediately..

tat's how I left that place...

successfully..

i end up with milo ais n burger ayam spcl...

uhuk...uhuk...

i reached home..

with a hungry tummy...

:((((

as i started to eat...

someone called!!

(i am so happy..cuz at least got sum1 to talk to!)

i thought it was my baby..

unfortunately..

NOT...

it was ELTC ONN!!

( eltc lecturer)

to my surprised!!

he is a friend of mine...

i was wondering y he called me..

as i answrd the call..

the 1st thng he said was..

" are u okay?"

n i was like..

" uh???........ya....y?"

(nervous)

" oh..nthg..Raze called me just now, he was caught in a trffc cngstn...n he saw u.."

"haa???? oh rili???"

(damn i was sooo embrrsd!!!)

"ya..he said u look sad...r u ok?"

"sure..i am just fine...i am ok..hee.."

"ure not going back??"

" i am... my aunt will fetch me at 9pm..tomoro is my flight.."

"oh i c... so ure alone in the hostel??"

(damn ! how can he knows tat??!)

"err...nope...got 1 fren here, she is nt goin bck..heee.."

( im lying.)

"oo......so hows ure dinner tonite?? "

"...hahaa...i'm having em now..."

"oo...i c...

eh...next time if u need any help just drop me a call...ok?"

"oo...hohoo...ok..."

(i was just want to say...bye...)

n

"hey...how bout ur esaimen??"

n bla..bla...bla........

hohooo.........at least got sum1 to talk to...... 
i'm all alone here...













p/s... tq for calling....

T.T

feel bored....

again...

i got nothing to do.

check the phone...

he text me not...

texted him..

he reply late..

oo..kay....

he is busy..

(',')

today..feel like evryone is leaving me alone..

evri1 is busy with their stuff...

................................

(it's okay..it's okay....i am just fine.....i'm alright.....i'm good....tehee...)

all alone...

zah is goin out ..

there is no electricity in our house..

evry body is out too..

some already went to their hometown..

i'm all alone..

having dinner with edwin n fendy just now..

but they want to go back early..

huhh... thought we could spend a lilttle longer at the Garden..

so i dun have to go back to the hostel n stay in my room..

alone..

it is damn creepy!!

my sweetheart is doing his assignment...

i know i cant disturb him..

hmm..it's ok...

when it comes to academic's things...

it is understandable..

huhuu...

so..just after i reached home..

straight away went to the bathroom..

its' door was opened wide..

with the light of my desk lamp shone straight 

from zah's table to the bathroom...

i turned the music on..

n dance like crazy..

a bruise at my right thigh haven't recover yet..

it hurts..

hurts..

hurtssss a lot...

but

the dance is just like a drug for me to forget 

the pain...

for half an hour...(juz an assumption) 

just to kill the boredom of staying home,alone...T.T

my bruise.

(close up)

got this bruise when i rushed to the lecture hall n accdntly i hit the chair with my thigh..

feel so GOOD!!!!

the next mrng when i woke up, 

it ache so so bad..

TT.TT

Tomorrow is Friday!!!!

tomorrow i will be back to my hometown!!

geeheeee.....

(but I haven't pack my things yet..)

it's ok..I have someone who will fetch me..sure she'll give me some extra time to pack..

wuahahaa!!

can't wait to see my mama, papa, sis, lil sis and my dearest twin bro!!

can't wait to lepak with them !!

miss my mum so much, i know she got plenty of advice for me..

and...ya! as usual i am ready for it...

living far away from them 

is enough to make them worry so much about me..

maybe sometimes i deserve to be worried about (err...only I know why..)

but..sometimes I don't..

i do the right things...

i do the good things...

well..at least I have them to take care of me..isn't??

I love them so much... 

soo muchh!!!

i miss my sister Lyn so much!!

can't wait to exchange stories!! 

My lil sis BB!! she just texted me just now telling how happy she is

for 30 minutes from now..she'll be in the plane fly straight to Sabah!! 

Urghh!! jealous!! jealous!!

we r supposed to go back togthr unfortunately due to some reason..

she have to join her friends.

n i ??

alone..

again!!

I'M BACK!!!

it's been a long time i didn't update my blog.

I create one early in this year just for fun, and since I've been busy for this few months

unintentionally my blog was neglected.

( even my password was forgotten!) 

=.=

just because today...i feel i have nothing to do 

and 

got plenty of time doing 'nothing'  then i got the intention to 'discover' my neglected blog.

sigh... 

hahaaa.....oyaa...feel free to comment on my grammar..

-people made mistakes- 

i too...^^ <3